everything's just too painful to take. i cant believe how foolish ive been to believe that we managed to settle our split properly. why didnt u tell me what u thought? i dont know what to say now. but i just need ur forgiveness. i admit it was stupid of me to even mention to teo first before talking to u. but it was just a passing comment at that time. and my taking of t1 during the holidaes was just to pass time because i wanted to train early n i wanted to let u rest til it was later bcuz i knew u didnt want to wake up too early n i didnt want to force u to since it was low tide in the mornings. every word i read on ur blog really hurt. but i hope u'll forgive me. or at least i hope u've have bcuz the entry was qt long ago. i wonder if the teasing together wif everyone else was to get at me cuz i hurt u by suggesting a split. i hate being teased about rumours. i wish the whole load of crap stops before i blow my freakin top in front of everyone.
in any case. training was tough todae. before trg was talking to et about her place in first team. i still treat her like my partner la. but i guess she's alot closer to charmaine after our split. it kinda hurts in a way. but i guess i have to deal. aniwae i think tt frreakin teo shud let et haf her position in first team! her skills n strength are enuf la. to heck wif his comments about her not putting enuf effort. it onli seems liddat to him cuz the effort wasnt put in directly IN FRONT of him. urghs. anw. train hard everyone. hope the team rebuilds itself slowly soon :)
